Your Words

    Your words are like melodies, replaying all our memories, you touch, so soft, its like the rain drop in the tropics, so warm, I want you to know, even if you don't, I do have feelings for you, so true, and whether you do too, means not, for what I share with you is enough, to me any way. I want you to be happy, for this time together will soon end, and I will never see you again. My heart races, the faster paces, the anger inside, for you thinking what I said was a lie, do you love me, or is it of not, that I am merely a lost soul hidden in a valley of mist. I have lost my way to find you, hidden in the cracks of this world we share. Your melodic voice still catching my ear. I love you, I do, so pure, but not. I wish to know what you think of me, my dear, before the years end it brought.

Eyes Of Hate

I'll cut these flags into my wrists,
I hope you do insist,
these colors are my life,
at least within your eyes,
I can not change my ways,
this is not a game,
I'm tired of all the lies,
brought forth within your eyes,
I can not change my ways cause this'll never be a game.

I'll find my way in life,
without all this strife,
I'm in a card game,
but I've yet to been plaid,
I hope fates on my hand,
otherwise I'm no man,
your rules are unfair,
to a mass of players,
I'll break all these rules,
even if it's not cool,
just to be myself, and nobody else, cause...


I'll cut these flags into my wrists,
I hope you do insist,
these colors are my life,
at least within your eyes,
I can not change my ways,
this is not a game,
I'm tired of all the lies,
brought forth within your eyes,
I can not change my ways cause this'll never be a game.


I'll never be a King,
I'm always the Joker,
I want to be your Ace,
part of your suit,
deep within your heart,
but it's split apart,
from all the years of hate,
and all of this debate,
these rules are pointless,
this I must address,
for we aren't all the same,
that you showed when,
we were all but slayed, you'll pay for that day, cause...


I'll cut these flags into my wrists,
I hope you do insist,
these colors are my life,
at least within your eyes,
I can not change my ways,
this is not a game,
I'm tired of all the lies,
brought forth within your eyes,
I can not change my ways cause this'll never be a game.


I'll be owner of my deck,
play my own cards,
I don't need fate,
to beat all of your hate,
I will win this game,
of which we were slayed,
deep within our hearts,
which has split apart,
because of all the lies,
written from your eyes,
in which you depicted,
a world without 'sin',
but read your own rules,
this is not cool,
I am a man,
but you hit me with your hand, I will not be pushed away, cause...


I'll cut these flags into my wrists,
I hope you do insist,
these colors are my life,
at least within your eyes,
I can not change my ways,
this is not a game,
I'm tired of all the lies,
brought forth within your eyes,
I can not change my ways cause this'll never be a game.

I Gotta Sail Away

So, this is my first attempt at writing a song, kind of rough an patchy

I don't wanna deal with you, any more,
I just can't take living through this war.
I've been shot repeatedly,
running towards a hopeful sea,
a hope we'll one day leave, our island of pain and misery.

 I wanna sail away,
from all these painful days.
I will always love you,
and I hope that you will too,
but I gotta sail away, from all these painful memories.

I'm making a list,
it's full of materials, I insist.
I'm leaving you behind,
I'm so sorry that you're blind.
I'm gathering my things,
a message I hope will ping.
To reveal your blue eyes,
but with that thought, I am so blind!

 I wanna sail away,
from all these painful days.
I will always love you,
and I hope that you will too,
but I gotta sail away, from all these painful memories.

I'm gathering my feelings,
hoping it won't cause pleadings,
to stay on this island,
a wonderful nightmare,
but to that I must compare,
the new world out there.
I'm sorry my love, I am,
this was not the plan,
but I gotta leave you behind,
before I too am blind,
this is my goodbye, I'll see you within my life.

I wanna sail away,
from all these painful days.
I will always love you,
and I hope that you will too,
but I gotta sail away, from all these painful memories.


I wanna sail away,
from all these painful days.
I will always love you,
and I hope that you will too,
but I gotta sail away, from all these painful memories.

I gotta sail away.

I gotta sail away.

Sail away.

I Did Not Belong With You

     The darkness and the pain will never go away, but as long as I live I shall never give, you all another chance, for what you did, you broke a promise, a rose so bright, now wilts. All the times you lied, my feelings survived, but my core is dying, from all the lying, my brain is dead, my head, a void, my world is gone, because all along, I knew, I did not belong with you.

The Infected Pokemon, Human Defenders.

The human defenders are based after the well known Poke'mon. There are sub units, the sub unit I will go over now is the Eeveelution sub unit.

There is eight classes.
Eevee, Vaporeon, Jolteon, Flareon, Espeon, Umbreon, Leafeon, and Glaceon.
With in that, there is fourteen different colors, each color gives a power. There is fourteen of each of the eight. Here is the powers to the color:
Red: Sonics/Sound
Orange: Flight
Yellow: Fire
Tan: Earth
Light Green: Plants
Dark Green: Speed
Light Blue: Telekinesis
Dark Blue: Water
Purple: Metal
Pink: Emotions
Black: Light energy (Light)
White: Dark energy (Darkness)
Gold: Strength
Bronze: Cunning
Silver: Lazers (Shot from different areas depending on Pokemon class. I.E. Silver Umbreon shoots from the rings on their armor.)

Then, within that, each one has a specialty.
Eevee: Emotions
Vaporeon: Cunning
Jolteon: Speed
Flareon: Strength
Espeon: Telekinesis
Umbreon: Sonics/Sound
Leafeon: Flight
Glaceon: Lazers

Those whose color's power matches their specailty have another ability, so all have two abilities. These are the most valuable of the fourteen of the eight.

Pink Eevee: Can predict actions of others, can see facial ticks/'read' people (Can never turn off. Some go insane by this.)

Bronze Vaporeon: Immune to physical pain (Emotional and mental pain are their weakness. They are easily swayed in by emotions and taunting.)

Dark Green Jolteon: Can transform into any Poke'mon for short time, must have seen and touched the Poke'mon before they can. No limit of how many times you can transform into that Poke'mon, always Dark Green in color.

Gold Flareon: Healing touch. Longer the hold, better the healing. Can reverse healing process as well, causing corroding of bodies and can cause diseases. If not paying enough attention, goes into reverse healing process.

Light Blue Espeon: Can mimic powers of other defenders he/she touches, can use that defender's ability once after touching them, constant use if still in contact with person, i.e. holding onto their arm.

Red Umbreon: Can bend energy, forming it into any shapes and sizes, always red colored. Energy equal to body mass amount. Can only go five meters away from Red Umbreon. Drains your energy, tiring. It's only as strong as the user's mental, physical, and emotional strength.

Orange Leafeon: Invisibility for period of time, ranging near an hour.

Silver Glaceon: Give life to inanimate objects for short period of time by shooting with different type of lazer. Ranging in about ten minutes long, objects only listen to the Silver Glaceon, willing to do It's command. Only can do one object at a time, shooting another object with such lazer while another is active, other drops 'dead' and new one comes to life.

That's all I have so far. Hope you enjoyed. Here's a link to some Infected Deoxi (My plural for Doexys) art work.

Last Lecture

  So, I had to do a last lecture for one of my classes, so here it is.

      Be who you want to be, a classic quote from an annoying doll named Barbie. Now, in most terms, I would never bring her up, but this phrase rings true. It always has. Its saying be who you wish to be. Barbie can be anything she wants/you wanted to be. Girls would imagine themselves as doctors and strong held women. They wanted to be themselves. Something I never wanted to be as a child. I was always afraid of not being normal, that I couldn't reach what I wanted, so much so, I lost my happiness. I was unhappy being what I thought I should be. I was wrong.

     My whole life I've always felt different, I've always felt like I was unwanted. I felt strange. I was different, and in third grade I found out why. I was diagnosed with a form of autism called aspergers. Now, it may not have seemed much of anything, I was still the same person, but my teacher refused to believe it was real and would exile me from the other students. I was constantly being picked on then since people thought, "If the teacher does it, it must be okay." By the end of my third grade year, I wanted to die. I spent most of the next four or five years this way. Even with friends who accepted me, I was always scared people would notice. I never told another person I had autism, I pretended to be dumb, and never did any work. I would act stupid so people would think I was normal. I stayed this way until the summer before eighth grade, when I met someone new. His name was Tyler. He was an outgoing yet shy person. He was the exact opposite of me, but we became friends. He taught me it didn't matter what other people thought of you, or how they think you should be. I became happy again. He taught me not to be so recluse, and enjoy the world around me. Then in late February of late year, he died. And the last thing he told his family to tell every one he knew was to remain happy, because he didn't want us to be sad even if he wasn't around to cheer us up. He saved my life. Imagine yourself as a Barbie or Ken doll. Would you rather be in Toy Story where you picked out your own clothes, got to do things you wanted, or do you want to be the doll owned by that girl you wants to be a dentist? No one truly wants to be a dentist; those are just the people who didn't do the best at medical school, with exceptions. Be the dolls in Toy Story, and chose your own path, be happy.

     I've been depressed. Extremely depressed. It actually runs in my family. Some people blame things on their genetics. There's really no point though, since it just means you’re more prone to be that way. My family is more prone to be depressed. Whether I choose to be that way or make myself that way though, is my fault. Both of my parents are quite young, my mother had me at sixteen and a half, and my dad was seventeen. Because they couldn't take care of me, they gave legal guardianship to my grandmother who has raised me since I can remember. She is my mom as must as my biological mother is. Both of them though, are extremely depressive and negative people. When I go over to their place in valley center, with the three of us in one area, dark clouds form. I'm not joking. Nine out of ten times I come over, it become overcast. My parents would have complained about the eighty degree weather that burned the week away the whole drive down. But due to their lack ability to find happiness within themselves at times, when you need to laugh or smile, our relationship has gone down in the dumps. I never had a good relationship with my father; in fact, I truly don't want to have one. I hate him with every spec of matter in my body. And my mother is no help either. Because of her depression and apathy, if she doesn't feel like doing something right then, or it won't be 'fun' to her, it becomes nothing. She has broken so many promises to me, I can't trust her word any more, and haven't been able to for a couple years. Being so negative about everything, apathy, depression, sullenness, don't be that way. Live life as a happy person, even if you don't want to be at the time. I'm not saying don't be sad. We have those feelings for a purpose, but stay on the brighter side of things. You will feel better, along as the people whom you interact with shall.

     When I was younger I was convinced I wouldn't get anywhere in life because people thought I was weird, now I was really wrong, but still. My mother has a rare nerve disease called RSD, or Reflex Sympathetic Dystrophy. Some of the side effects from a case like hers are muscle spasms that will last hours, where without medication, her body would literally moving without control, the sensation of third degree burns all over her body for no reason, going on and off, and she must take over ten different types of medication a day to stop those side effects and many more, some I'm sure I'm not even aware of. My mom has a PhD in creative writing and U.S. history. While raising three kids, had two jobs, and went to school, she fought with her disease, it slowly getting worse and worse each year. When I was five, she graduated from San Diego State University. She finished teaching school when I was eight, and got a job teaching at Temecula Middle School when I was nine. She taught for four year, and became bed redden due to her disease. She went through years of schooling to get there, only to be forced physically forced to stop. Had it not happened, she would have still been teaching there. We are a lot like the game Frogger, we have to jump passed moving obstacles, in order to get to our goal, the other side of the road. So people get hit, and walk away from the game. Others though stay determined to get as far as they can before the batteries die. They even may have the charger plugged in and it may take a black out to stop them. Well, my mom hit a black out with not light at the end of the tunnel. The disease in incurable. We can all reach all goals if we try. As my grandma says, "Whether you can or can't, you're right."

     We are only ourselves. We cannot be different. We are all different. No one is the same. Would you rather live life as yourself, reaching the goals you want, and being a happy person, or would you like to be the person who hates everything in their life. We're all snowflakes. Don't expect you or others to be the same.

I Knew It All Along

 I knew it all along, and I told myself it wasn't true. My feelings for you may be faint, but the faint of heart and the faint of head are to different things, and as I watch you both run off into your land of romance, all I can think about was if I had a chance. It was never meant to be, but until I can see that fate made us not, I have to write a poem of the times I wish were the past, a "Forgot."

Kandi Making

Demonic Species-Demons-Religion

   So, I haven't been writing as much so I thought I'd post my new 'discorvery' from within my self. I was just listening to Numa Numa, no joke, and it popped into my head, the Demon species should have a religion and I'll make one for every species! So here's how the Demon species religion 'began' and it's main gods.

  The Demon religion, Zaterax, s based after main seven gods, or the first seven demons every created. They are the demonic gods of water, air, earth, metal, wood, fire, and lightning. It is said when the world (Their world of Zentra) was born, they were too. They are too watch over their world and keep a check on the elements.

Demonic God of Water:
  Vespera was the first god born to the world when it was covered in water. She enjoyed the quick life quite a bit, but soon became lonely. She began talking to the only large element around her, air. Her need for friendship was so great that the elements itself became personified into another demon god. This was the 'birth' of the newer elements.

Demonic God of Air:
  Avial was the second born to the world and became quick friends with Vespera. Their friendship was deep, but soon became deeper as they feel in love. Together they raised the mucky earth from the bottom of the sea and the earth god Flax was born, but he was frail and weak. So Avial gathered matter from the little aways off into space he could reach, and brought it down to his son. Thus the twins Andrax and Taneka were born, to help support their frail, but growing stronger brother.

Demonic God of Earth:
  Flax was the third to be born to the world. With is twin brother and sister, they made a sturdy group who held each other together. He and Andrax were lovers till the lightning god Zavialix came, and he now is in love with Photon, but still retains feelings for Andrax.

Demonic God of Metal:
  Andrax was the fourth to be born. He is silent, and only talks to two of his family,Photon and Zavialix. He is distant to the rest of his family, but does care for them. He is loyal to his family, and would do anything to protect Flax and Zavialix.

Demonic God of Wood:
  Taneka was the fifth to be born, she is the most beautiful and quiet of them all. She was close only to her father, mother, and eldest brother. She never talks to her win, Andrax, for he is good friends with Photon, and hurt Flax deeply. She is the mother of Zavialix, and refuses to talk to the father, Photon because of what he did to her.

Demonic God of Fire:
  Photon was the sixth to be born when a star exploded and raw energy passed by Zentra. Avial grabbed some of the energy and harden Flax some more, and to warm the planet, thus Photon was born. He soon fell in love with Taneka, but she refused him. Enraged an incapable of controlling his emotions, he struck her with a force so great, a new element was born, Zavialix. Taneka left, left unconscious, Photon took the chance to raped her.

Demonic God of Lightning:
  Zavialix was the last god to be born. He parents are polar opposites of each other. She is outgoing, but fears her power may hurt the ones she loves. She soon befriended Andrax, her uncle, for he was no scared of her power. he soon feel in love with him, even knowing he was with Flax, and when he confessed his feelings for her, she refused to believe him. She did everything to keep him back, fearing what happened to her mother may happen to her, but her power was just absorbed by Andrax and he embraced her. The two became lovers soon after that.

Art, art, and art.

A pendant I made, special thanks to my mom with her resin skills.

One of the two gifts for my girlfriend this valentines day.

The other is all done, but I finished it late at night so I didn't take pictures of it finished.

Cutie.

I hope you just know

that your adorable to me,

and always will be.

My Final Song

Why should I have to deal with you, when I really don't want to, all you do is bring me down, I feel like I am about to drown, and even though you said you'd be there, I have yet to see you near. So when I fall and fall to my never ending sleep, just remember it's you who dug me so deep. I was already broken, because they thought I was a token, but I'm not, I can't be bought. So when you read my final words, I hope you remember those birds, the ones you promised would be us, but they might as well be hit by a bus, and all those times I cried, as I lied about my fate, but now I'm at the gate, to a life without hate, a never ending story, that will never be boring, because the you in me is so much different, and the I in you is just so foreign. So as you hear my final song, remember it was you who played pong with my heart.

Memories Of Those Days

When I thought about all the times you tried, I begin to think about all those times you lied, and when I do I see my insides die, from all those times you strived, to drag me down to your level, it's like a boulder to a little tiny pebble. Now I begin to ask myself why, did you even bother to tell me you loved me like you did, you pretended to promise you wouldn't, break my heart. Now this harp of suicidal songs, massacre the ones, that tried to bring them down, but in the end they're drowned out, but those words long since said, the ones you told me when we were in bed, on that night so blissful, now it tastes like a piss full. Your full of sweet sours, it's like a morning with warm showers, but by mid day your nothing but the wind, barely there, just a breeze, then gone from my touch, your something I wish I could just punch, because I love you. And whats hurts even worse, is the fact that your hearse, is the carriage to my castle, but really it's just a never ending battle, to my death. Now when I lay there crying, remember it's you who lied to me. So I hope you understand, when I finally try to just plain stand, on my own once again, all there is left is a dream, where my life is with out misery. But to make such happen, you'll have to be dumped near a cabin, I apologize for what I said, now please just come back in with me to bed. I understand now what I am, I'm not at peace, but I'm not dead. You're still the man of my dreams, and I wouldn't want these moon light beams to think any other way, it's just you and me, and memories from those days.

Love Is War.

I just hope you know one day, that I felt this way for you, even if you never knew. And I know it is useless to ponder, would our relationship ever go yonder. Even as it seems I would, there's nothing I would do that I already could, I still like, maybe love, you, but I won't promise you any thing. You showed nothing, and continue as such, it feels like nothing but a punch. Now I hope you understand, that though I tried, it's pointless to continue to stand. You do not love me back, and may never will, so what the point in this pointless will. I see now the truth, of something so sleuth, would just be a lie, to get myself by. My life is not happy, nor is it sappy. I am no fool to my own tricks, I am aware, and now am ready to deal with you pricks.

-Zeta Draco Isaacs of the Tokokyohi.

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Name: Zeta Draco Isaacs A.k.a. Justin Isaacs

Age: 16-24

Species: Demi-Demon

Class: Immortal/Demon/Sonosaphian

Height: 5’ 7”

Weight: 150 Lbs.

Sexuality: Omnisexual

Bio:

Creator Here: http://browse.deviantart.com/?qh=&section=&global=1&q=Character+creator#/d34lv54

Picture order: 1-4. Justin/Zeta when Chris is in mental hospital. 5. Justin saves Pandora during a competition and befriends him. 6. Justin and Pandora working together during the competition. 7. Justin after he makes the contract. 8. Near the end of them destroying the Angelic Species. 9. Justin in the City of Souls competition for the wish. 9. When Justin meets Pandora at the gates of Ataksuki’s hell, revealing his true name, and his own past. 10. When Zeta and Pandora are together again.